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[03 Jan 2010|07:26am]
So considering i don't use LJ anymore if anyone i used to be friends with on here has facebook...add me :)
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sleep cycles [18 Apr 2006|01:18pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

It's weird how your body knows when you are depressed/sad. It now allows me to sleep completely through the night without waking up till 1:30 in the afternoon. Maybe it knows i need a break.

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The small things [04 Apr 2006|04:08pm]
[ mood | blah ]

Things i miss....

My hair color

My H(e)art.

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Back ? [17 Mar 2006|06:37pm]
[ mood | cold ]

I think after all this time...i realized how much i miss my LJ and all of my lj friends. hi again :)
Myspace got me hooked but why abandon lj...


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[31 Jul 2005|10:16am]
[ mood | content ]

It seems like I always come back to lj when something major is going on in my life or when i'm starting to fall for someone. It's this constant pattern with me. Mostly, i have gotten wrapped up in Myspace and haven't cared to update this. I kind of miss it. It reminds me of old times and how happy i was and finally being able to open up with all of you that actually used to read this thing. I used to love writing, but i haven't had anything to write about until now. But i found a muse :)

22 is looking to be a good year.

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[11 Jul 2005|08:52pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

I miss how I used to feel. Everything feels different now. I wish I could go back in time or maybe make the future feel more like the past.

Just a thought..

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well... [09 Jul 2005|04:45am]
[ mood | tired ]

I didn't think I'd miss her this much, but I do.

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[03 Jul 2005|04:54am]
[ mood | sleepy ]


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[26 Jun 2005|06:03am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

New outlook on things...

Tonight was fabulous :)

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[22 Jun 2005|11:39pm]
[ mood | sad ]

I don't know why i continue to do the things I do. I am not the kind of person to make mistakes as big as the ones i'm making. Atleast i have this amazing group of friends who keep me sane and make me feel loved and accepted. I've never really had what i have now. I honestly don't even know how i felt into it. I belong to something and it's the only thing that feels remotely good right now. I am going to hold onto that. I know that change will happen soon. Good or bad but something.

P.S.Nic , i'm sorry for tonight

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[15 Jun 2005|03:11am]
[ mood | annoyed ]

It just has to be said.... I MISS MIA DARLING. Yes you :)

And also....it blows my mind when people steal...especially a random mixed cd a friend gives you. Never put anything down at a bar with scandalous lesbians.


Goodnight :)

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[13 Jun 2005|02:19am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

Recent discoveries, once you become friends with a group of lesbians...more drama occurs than you ever have experienced in your life. But then why do I enjoy my life so much ? But i'm a little bored with myself.

I kinda miss Lj but i seem to write less and less. At this point...i'm almost a little embarassed to write about certain things going on with me. Since when have i become scared to expose myself...

Something's changing...

P.S. I just got out of work...something doesn't seem right about that..

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come find me! [03 Jun 2005|10:33pm]
[ mood | blah ]

Ok...so i said i would NEVER be one of those myspace people.. I LIED!

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I wish that i was as invisible as you make me feel [01 Jun 2005|07:39pm]
[ mood | disappointed ]

I hate this feeling of sadness. In some aspects i'm totally fullfilled and then so very empty in others. I have all these great new friends and i'm having such an amazing time but then to others i'm putting myself out there and it's making me insecure. I love upfront and to the point people. I don't want to play the guessing game. You either are my friend or you're not. Also, it seems like so much is changing...mostly people. And this change isn't for the better. I miss being 19. That was one of my best years. Thank you Beka for the hot ass haircut <3 you can't miss what you forget... so let's just pretend that anything between you and me was never meant

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[24 May 2005|02:31pm]
[ mood | blah ]

So much has changed. Where do I begin ?

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[23 May 2005|01:29am]
Guess who got their computer back??? ME!! Full update tomorrow :)
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[01 May 2005|07:10pm]
[ mood | confused ]

Sometimes I wish I could just take things back........maybe i'd be happy still.

I suck.

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[30 Apr 2005|05:22pm]
[ mood | blah ]

It all comes down to that I'm really unhappy. I wish I could fix it with the snap of my fingers but it's going to take a lot more time then i had hoped it would. It's not one specific thing, it's everything. I hate being the sad unsatisfied girl.

P.S.I wish she'd understand that i moved on from how things used to be, she is forever one of my bestfriends but she left , and i made a life for myself apart from her because i HAD to. I am sorry I am so different now but i still adore and love you.

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just stop.. [24 Apr 2005|01:12am]
[ mood | aggravated ]

Bottom line....

I'm tired of being mindfucked by everyone

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Here you stand seething with guilt.Silence only justifies this act of cowardice. [21 Apr 2005|02:50pm]
[ mood | torn up ]

Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person,
and the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much?
So much like choking down the embers of a great blaze.
It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersions
and to scream confessions at the insipid sky parting clouds.
You let this one person come down on the most perfect moment.
And it breaks my heart to know the only reason you are here now is a reminder of what I'll never have..
I'll never have.. I'll never...
Standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in..
standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in.
But this table for one has become bearable.
I now take comfort in this, and for this, I cherish you.

Just say that you would do the same for me..

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